Sunday, June 27, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Echo & The Moon
I remember vividly. My baby was traveling with a different pilot than myself. First time legs met water. The USS Detroit was leaving port in New Jersey underway for the blue waters of the Caribbean. I was in Ohio caring for my mother. Beyond the work & watches, we both could imagine it as a vacation.We spoke earlier that day. I said to him, "if you ever need me Jake, look at the moon. I will be there."
The Moon & the stars have always captivated me...& took me away for...as long as I can remember. My online name is Echo. People all across the nation & other parts of the world know me as nothing but Echo. I'm not sure how close I will come on this, but I have heard a story about Echo, I believe Greek Mythology. Echo was tormented by Narcissus for so long that she just...faded away, until all that remained was her Echo. Strange how, if I could choose a nickname, Echo would be it. I was Echo before I was aware of my mother's disease...Narcissistic Personality Disorder.
So, as the full moon came up that evening, I sat on the patio, thinking of Jake & afixed on the Moon. I don't know how much time went by. Since I've 're-tired', time seems to be more & more irrelevant. (Sometimes I don't even know what day it is. What's worse is...I don't care!) Night came on slowly. I remember a small cloud floating by in front of the moon. And then it happened. For a fleeting second, the Moon got brighter, like an aura coming from it. Like going from 60-75 watts. I & knew, that right then, right there, in that brief space in time, that Jake was there.
Our e-mails passed each other in cyberspace. Yes...he was there! He asked, as did I, "Did you see that?"
I'll believe it when I see it.
I'll see it when I believe it.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Thing1&Thing2
"These are $3...they're not babies anymore."
I took 2...& named them Thing1 & Thing2. Thing2 was smaller, but just a little. I brought them home, put them in my small tank, & I've been watching...observing them since.
I googled Apple Snail. Wow! Intriguing. I followed the spiral to the center. And so started this journey.
They became friends almost immediately. They were rarely apart. And, a week before Christmas Thing2 became ill. It's pad came together as if fingertips all touching at once. It didn't move for days. It stayed at the back of the tank by the filter. I almost took it out to the garden to bury it. A voice said "no"...but not in words. Death is hard to watch these days. I had to walk away. I had SO much to look forward to. Change your thoughts girl. And so I did. I trusted that Thing2 was going to make it. That voice. Anyway, Thing1 had foung it's friend. It got right up against Thing2. I was reassured.
And then Christmas was upon us. I got Mom-napped by my son & grandson. I liked it! I revisted my childhood as I watched the world through that little guys eyes. He's 3. The word love takes on yet another meaning. We played, & I filled him full of sugar cookies. We fired at each other with peanuts. We both pooped out at 9pm.
And for the first time since he was born, I was there! Right there with him! It was wonderous! Magical! There are no words....and then that journey ended. & another door opened....
I got home & went directly to the tank. Thing2 hadn't moved. I again procrastinated the funeral. And the next time I looked up, there they were...side by side on the glass! Magical. And as I watched them, they spoke lessons to me. They don't need each other necessarily to procreate. But I can't imagine being the only one of my species...the only one of any species in my environment. Did Thing1 save Thing2? Had Thing2 eaten too much spinach? Did I have my thermostat too low? Nawww...I think it was much deeper than that. I'm not much of a social person. I mean, I don't need to be around people all the time. In Abnormal Psychology it may be seen as a social disorder, or symptoms of depression, but in Positive Psychology (both with Dr. Pete...what a guy!) it's called Socioemotional Selectivity...& it's a good thing.
Nature & all that encompasses has SO much to teach. We need only to slow down, look, listen...wonder.
SO much has been brought to the forefront through dj's Project Consciousness.
I've been lost in space for awhile...but I'm back now.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Forever in my heart
http://www.maylin.net/Fireworks.htmlPlease send some fireworks to Boby...any time of the year...she loves them! :)
Thursday, June 11, 2009
"Silent Lucidity"
http://new.music.yahoo.com/videos/Queensryche/Silent-Lucidity--36648108
Hush now don't you cry
Wipe away that teardrop from your eye
You're lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream spinning in your head.
Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
So here it is, another chance. Wide awake you face the day.
Your dream is over...or has it just begun?
There's a place I like to hide. A doorway that I run through in the night.
Relax child...you were there, but only didn't realize it and you were scared.
It's a place where you will learn
To face your fears, retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind
Commanding in another world suddenly you hear and see this magic new dimension.
I-will be watching over you
I-am gonna help you see it through
I-will protect you in the night
I-am smiling next to you...in silent lucidity.
If you open your mind to me
You won't rely on open eyes to see.
The walls you build within
Come tumbling down and a new world will begin.
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly.
A round trip journey in your head.
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but...
I-will be watching over you
I-am going to help you see it through
I-will protect you in the night
I-am smiling next to you...in silent lucidity.
Hush now don't you cry
Wipe away that teardrop from your eye
You're lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream spinning in your head.
Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
So here it is, another chance. Wide awake you face the day.
Your dream is over...or has it just begun?
There's a place I like to hide. A doorway that I run through in the night.
Relax child...you were there, but only didn't realize it and you were scared.
It's a place where you will learn
To face your fears, retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind
Commanding in another world suddenly you hear and see this magic new dimension.
I-will be watching over you
I-am gonna help you see it through
I-will protect you in the night
I-am smiling next to you...in silent lucidity.
If you open your mind to me
You won't rely on open eyes to see.
The walls you build within
Come tumbling down and a new world will begin.
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly.
A round trip journey in your head.
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but...
I-will be watching over you
I-am going to help you see it through
I-will protect you in the night
I-am smiling next to you...in silent lucidity.
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